Usually not much gets to me. I can be pushed far beyond the limits of most people without much of a reaction, except to look where it is coming from. Since I have been in Alberta though, it seems that I am a target for the taking. Right from the purchase of the farm, where the owners downright lied about most things, to the rebuilding of the porch last fall, I have been pushed and taken advantage of to no end.
But when some one you consider a friend extends that as well, well, it get me upset. I think if I was a different person, my time would be a little more valuable to others. I am debating what to do. Left without hay or fencing is a real dilemma. A person has been kind enough to sell me a bale of hay so the sheep don't starve, but the point is, that did not have to happen if other things had fallen into place. Yes, we all have issues and things come up in life that might prevent us from doing exactly what we say, but most try pretty darn hard to not disappoint people who are paying them.
I am tired of feeding hay. It has been 8 months of forking the hay over, cleaning the feeders and doing it all again the next day. June will mark the 9th month. The sad thing, is there is a lot of good green grass in the pasture this year with the rains and warm last few weeks and the sheep and goats would sure like to be out there too.
So, today, I am wallowing in self pity for being a little too easy. My own fault, it is, I know and I am the only one who can change that. I know that too. Still, it is one of those days.
But when some one you consider a friend extends that as well, well, it get me upset. I think if I was a different person, my time would be a little more valuable to others. I am debating what to do. Left without hay or fencing is a real dilemma. A person has been kind enough to sell me a bale of hay so the sheep don't starve, but the point is, that did not have to happen if other things had fallen into place. Yes, we all have issues and things come up in life that might prevent us from doing exactly what we say, but most try pretty darn hard to not disappoint people who are paying them.
I am tired of feeding hay. It has been 8 months of forking the hay over, cleaning the feeders and doing it all again the next day. June will mark the 9th month. The sad thing, is there is a lot of good green grass in the pasture this year with the rains and warm last few weeks and the sheep and goats would sure like to be out there too.
So, today, I am wallowing in self pity for being a little too easy. My own fault, it is, I know and I am the only one who can change that. I know that too. Still, it is one of those days.
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